I have been struggling for quite some time with a bad attitude involving a particular person. My attitude is only bad when I think of said person though. :o) Isn't that what we sometimes do: justify our faults, giving reasons why they are justifiable?
Yesterday afternoon God arranged a meal with said person and our family. I decided to have a good attitude but couldn't make it stick. It is one of those things that just eats at me and steals my joy. I had gone to a wedding shower/reception with our three youngest children for a really special couple. It was out of town so we were to meet everyone at the restaurant at 5:00 p.m.
When we pulled onto the parking lot Ben stopped the car, looked at us and said, "Remember, it doesn't cost anything to be nice." Sometimes I am ashamed when my kids exhibit more maturity than I do. However God really spoke to me through Ben. It would of cost something for me (dying to self) if it hadn't been one of those God moments. We had a nice meal and even came back to our house and I made cookies for everyone.
I can't say that I'm over it and next time will be wonderful. I'm sure it won't be. I'm certain I'll still struggle with my attitude. To make my point I looked up a word in the dictionary. I started to use the word "worse" and decided to see what it said about it. (I love words and the on-line dictionary if you haven't noticed.) When I entered the word worse it took me to the word bad and said the inflected forms are worse and worst. Then it listed many words that describe me perfectly in this situation. I'll list some of them so you'll get the idea: poor, unfavorable, spoiled, dilapidated, evil, disobedient, disagreeable, unpleasant, injurious, harmful, severe, incorrect, faulty, unhealthy, and diseased.
These adjectives depict me perfectly at times. I'm not perfect nor will I ever be in this life. But my Saviour is and He gives me victory if I'll walk in Him.
John 15:5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing."